Complete.

When it was just my Father, Mother, two sisters and myself, my life felt complete. Our happy little family. I loved being together. And as our family has grown I feel the same way. Our family feels complete with my added siblings. And when my little sister is born I'll feel my family is still complete. Sometimes I wonder how I could and can feel that our whole family was and is complete when my whole family is still not born. I didn't expect our family to grow in size and neither did the the rest of my family. Since we didn't have any expectations of anything changing we were content.

This is how I often seem to feel. Empty. Unsatisfied.
Because I don't feel that I have everything in my life that I want. If only I were smarter, if only I had more stuff, if only I were more popular, if only I weren't introverted,if only I were prettier, if only, if only.
If I didn't know anything but the life I had and knew nothing of all the extras of life, I still wouldn't be happy.
I shouldn't be thinking of my life as a bunch of ' if only's that I am expecting. I need to think of my life as a bunch of once in a life time adventures, living out my life to the fullest in the completion of God each day.

I am... we all are, broken with out God and we can only be happy, content, satisfied, and complete with God.

God... is love. (1 John 4:16)
God... is truth. (1 John 5:6)
God... is light.  (1 John 1: 5)
God... is life. ( 1 John 5:20)

Without God we are without love, truth, light, life.
If I truly want to be complete I need to turn my gaze to my Savior and not to my expectations of life, because God knows best.

 Again Jesus spoke to them, saying,  "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."
 John 8:12 


 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
 Romans 6:23

(Emphasis added)